Sometimes...

Sometimes fear of rejection leaves me standing in a doorway, unable to enter.
Sometimes going a new direction leaves me terrified, unable to find my center.
Most days I'm fumbling and stumbling and never quite sure of my way.
Most days I'm awkward and lonely and can't think of the right thing to say.
But I know that I am true, a good friend with a kind heart.
I know that I am loyal, and loving, and sometimes even smart.
I know that I am sensitive, I know I have thin skin,
I know that there are times I think I'll never quite fit in.
Sometimes the truths of my childhood are a bitter pill to swallow.
Sometimes I worry that all that pain has left a part of my heart hollow.
Most days I worry for reasons that I can't explain at all.
Most days I'm scared to take a leap for fear that I might fall.
But I know that I am strong, a worthy mother and a loving wife.
I know that I am lucky to have this crazy beautiful life...